i think i need a refill

My family and I are bigggg eating out people. It makes this coronavirus season kinda rough but that’s a totally different topic. The older and busier that my brother and I got the more my family ate-out. Since I was little I knew my parents were fans of good service. One of the ways that my mom would gauge a person’s service was through refills. If our drinks were empty the majority of the meal, chances were that the server wasn’t very attentive. In all honesty, I believe it’s a great way to determine the quality of service. It seems like a small detail but it really is a big factor of a sit-down meal.

Do you ever feel like you need a refill? Now I’m not talking about a drink refill but a spiritual refill. Spring semester of school is always hard for me because I feel like I’m never fully filled. I feel like I’m getting a refill but before the person even finishes filling my drink I’ve already drunk half of the cup. To be frank, it’s just exhausting.

I know I’m not alone. Spring semester in college is all work and no play. It’s school, work, ministry, work, school, other activities, and the schedule never pauses except for one week: spring break.

I’m currently on Spring Break which is why I even had enough time to spit out a blog post! But I just want to talk and let you know if you’re feeling empty and have lowkey lost hope you’ll ever be content and joyful again — I’m with you, but I just want to encourage you and let you know you can do it.

One thing that I have been doing recently that has really helped is keeping a mindfulness list. I’ll take everything on my mind and just scribble it onto on a piece of paper. After I see the insanity that my brain contains, I find scripture that can help supplement or support me through the moment. It reminds me that although I am struggling with stuff, God always has an answer.

Prayer has also helped me a lot in this time. When I pray I feel like my thoughts are all over the place but I find so much comfort in knowing that God is an understanding Father and knows my thoughts a whole lot better than I ever could.

My biggest advice is just to take it to God! I know (I KNOW) that it may feel like you’re just going through the motions and stagnant in a way, but God knows your heart and is the only person who can fill your cup (and actually may it overflow — Psalm 23:5.) I need to be reminded of this so I’m so glad I’m writing it hahaha. Okay, I’m going to go ahead and close this post because I’m getting kinda random. Love you all so much and see ya in the next post((:

Verses to check out: Ecclesiastes 3:11, Exodus 34:6-7, Exodus 14:14, John 14:27, Matthew 6:34